Being a first time mother can be really stressful. Especially when you're a teenager. While I was pregnant, I imagined all the struggles and obstacles I would have to go through. I felt pathetic getting pregnant at the age 0f 16. I also went through depression ( no thanks to the best boyfriend in the world -.-'' ).
I felt like I disappointed my whole family. I wish that I finished school so I could give my child a better future, I wish I had a stable job so I could give her everything, and I wish I had a kid with the right guy so we wouldn't have a broken family. In other words, I wish I waited. On August 4th, 2009, I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. I decided to name her Izabella Grace. My whole world changed in a blink of an eye. I didn't care about anything except her (even my boyfriend! lol). I didn't care what people thought about me. I knew people would judge 'cus I was "baby having a baby" but whatever! at least I have the guts to face the consequences and raise her! I thought raising a newborn would be hard..but it was 5x easier than I imagined. From day 1 up until now, my daughter made my job of being a mom not so bad. She sleeps when I want to sleep, She eats when I want her to eat, plays when I want her to play, and wow! she's an angel.
Of course there are a few times when she cries..but that's when she wants me to cuddle with her.
January 2010, I decided to get my ass back in to highschool and finish my last year. Thought it would be hectic but having a daycare right beside Tupper is so convenient! I visit her on my breaks or when she needs me.
Playing a full-time mom and school girl ain't easy. Weird..last year I was only playing the role of a student .. now I'm a student, mother, and "wife". Maaaaan, I am soo not ready for a third role.
Relationship has been more down than up lately ( more like since I was pregnant ).. feels like i'm only in it for my daughter =/ I don't regret being a young mom ...
livin' life with no regrets .. just another lesson learned
The first time I held my baby girl. Love at first sight. haha <3
